Filler
I have sat down to update several times, with my mind going back to how I said that I was going to post pictures of my trip, and I walk away. I haven't had the time, or the energy, to post a bunch of pictures. Maybe later?
Mom is .... Okay? I guess. Her doctor wants her to sign in to a hospital, but she isn't going to do that. Most of my time, and energy, have been put in to keeping her level. It is working, for the most part, but it tends to take a lot out of me.
I have been dreading tomorrow. And that is all that I will say on the matter.
Adam and I went to see Star Trek last night. I have been a fan since before I was a teen. Maybe not my whole life has been spent loving Trek, but most of it. I was a convention goer, often spending my weekends volunteering at booths and at the convention site rather than partying or getting along with people as a high school student. Being able to sit in a room full of people while watching Trek, again, made me happy. I felt peaceful, excited, and brought back to a piece of myself I had lost. Not a bad start to this weekend, right?
We went to Elizabeth's 20th birthday dinner on Thursday. It was interesting. Elizabeth and her husband, David, have a strange dynamic. I am uncomfortable with the way that he treats her, but she has not been one to listen to any one's council when it comes to that man. At least she was willing to share her birthday with people that love her. That is something.
The weather is already sweltering here. I think if I could get away with wandering around wearing nothing but a bathing suit all of the time, I would. One of those string numbers that would embarrass us all. Oh yeah. Barely dressed goodness. Am I right?
I made an effort to get our social obligations more organized, only to have to cancel pretty much everything because I have been overly concerned with my mom. Figures.
I have projects that I want to attack, but my lack of energy continues to be my greatest hindrance. I can barely manage the control of the laundry. It is very unusual behavior for me, but I will chalk it up to losing Mazzy and all of the drama that has come and gone since then.
I am alive. I am getting up every day. I am a success.
Mom is .... Okay? I guess. Her doctor wants her to sign in to a hospital, but she isn't going to do that. Most of my time, and energy, have been put in to keeping her level. It is working, for the most part, but it tends to take a lot out of me.
I have been dreading tomorrow. And that is all that I will say on the matter.
Adam and I went to see Star Trek last night. I have been a fan since before I was a teen. Maybe not my whole life has been spent loving Trek, but most of it. I was a convention goer, often spending my weekends volunteering at booths and at the convention site rather than partying or getting along with people as a high school student. Being able to sit in a room full of people while watching Trek, again, made me happy. I felt peaceful, excited, and brought back to a piece of myself I had lost. Not a bad start to this weekend, right?
We went to Elizabeth's 20th birthday dinner on Thursday. It was interesting. Elizabeth and her husband, David, have a strange dynamic. I am uncomfortable with the way that he treats her, but she has not been one to listen to any one's council when it comes to that man. At least she was willing to share her birthday with people that love her. That is something.
The weather is already sweltering here. I think if I could get away with wandering around wearing nothing but a bathing suit all of the time, I would. One of those string numbers that would embarrass us all. Oh yeah. Barely dressed goodness. Am I right?
I made an effort to get our social obligations more organized, only to have to cancel pretty much everything because I have been overly concerned with my mom. Figures.
I have projects that I want to attack, but my lack of energy continues to be my greatest hindrance. I can barely manage the control of the laundry. It is very unusual behavior for me, but I will chalk it up to losing Mazzy and all of the drama that has come and gone since then.
I am alive. I am getting up every day. I am a success.
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