This is me Happy.
I know the weekend isn't over, but I'm pretty sure that this is my favorite weekend (so far) this year. Yesterday was packed with fun stuff that only boring married people like to do. We got up early and did some housework. My glasses finally came in and we made the trip to pick them up. Adam was in a good enough mood that we left there and went to Home Depot so that we could pick out plants for the season.
Picking out plants is usually no fun for me at all. Adam gets what he wants and doesn't listen to anything and I'm forced to help keep them up even though he didn't pick anything I might eat or think was pretty. This year went differently. We picked a blackberry bush for the backyard and Adam got starter cucumbers and tomatoes. I was able to pick out an orchid to take care of this year. (We'll see if I can get it grow and not die.)
The blackberry bush is probably my favorite. I wanted blueberry, but Adam doesn't eat blueberries. Maybe I can convince him next year. I like the idea of berries growing in the backyard. I like useful plants. I'm weird that way. Sure, I like pretty flowers, but not pretty plants. I want my time spent playing in the dirt to produce something.
We have a really tiny backyard, so we can't go crazy planting every year. We usually pot a few things and harvest what we can from the potted plant. I'm hoping that, over time, we'll be able to plant more in the ground. We have a section of the backyard we can use for garden space, but convincing Adam to plot it out and make it a reality is hard. Impossible. It's never been done.
I can't fight him this year because of the whole being pregnant thing and he might get away with it next year since Nora will still be on the small side, but the year after that it's on. I want my daughter to have a concept of growing things and knowing where her food comes from. I think it would be nice if she was able to participate in the food chain, even if it's on such a small scale.
After we purchased our plants we came home and played in the dirt. I was so excited we put the bush in the ground that I danced around like a poorly trained penguin. Seriously. It put me in such a good mood that I was chatty and motivated to do more around the house.
Today has been good. Maybe it wasn't as blissfully exciting, but I've enjoyed the day. I've been productive. Adam has finally agreed that I'm strong enough to go to the store with him to shop for the week.
I'm doing my best to stay busy and cleaning as much as I can. I'm looking forward to making pot stickers and fried rice for dinner. I haven't had that in a while and the baby and I LOVE it.
Sometimes I feel like I'd do more if I wasn't always dreading running in to Mom when I'm in the kitchen, but I'm working on overcoming that reluctance. It's my house and my heart is much fuller when I'm slicing vegetables and making cookies. I like to be busy. I know that I won't be able to do a lot of these things for a while after Nora is born because I'm going to be breastfeeding, but I'm going to be back at it when she's older.
My only complaint right now is that both sets of bedding that I like for the nursery are currently unavailable. I'm hoping that something will come up before too long. I've got to have it on the registry before the baby shower.
I hope that this peace and contentment can stay with me a few more days, even in the face of Mom's upsetting behavior. I don't want to be sad, or scream, or constantly angry and frustrated. I know that I'm not really that person. While Mom was gone there was such calmness in my life. I want to find a way of recreating that even though Mom brings such chaos.
Picking out plants is usually no fun for me at all. Adam gets what he wants and doesn't listen to anything and I'm forced to help keep them up even though he didn't pick anything I might eat or think was pretty. This year went differently. We picked a blackberry bush for the backyard and Adam got starter cucumbers and tomatoes. I was able to pick out an orchid to take care of this year. (We'll see if I can get it grow and not die.)
The blackberry bush is probably my favorite. I wanted blueberry, but Adam doesn't eat blueberries. Maybe I can convince him next year. I like the idea of berries growing in the backyard. I like useful plants. I'm weird that way. Sure, I like pretty flowers, but not pretty plants. I want my time spent playing in the dirt to produce something.
We have a really tiny backyard, so we can't go crazy planting every year. We usually pot a few things and harvest what we can from the potted plant. I'm hoping that, over time, we'll be able to plant more in the ground. We have a section of the backyard we can use for garden space, but convincing Adam to plot it out and make it a reality is hard. Impossible. It's never been done.
I can't fight him this year because of the whole being pregnant thing and he might get away with it next year since Nora will still be on the small side, but the year after that it's on. I want my daughter to have a concept of growing things and knowing where her food comes from. I think it would be nice if she was able to participate in the food chain, even if it's on such a small scale.
After we purchased our plants we came home and played in the dirt. I was so excited we put the bush in the ground that I danced around like a poorly trained penguin. Seriously. It put me in such a good mood that I was chatty and motivated to do more around the house.
Today has been good. Maybe it wasn't as blissfully exciting, but I've enjoyed the day. I've been productive. Adam has finally agreed that I'm strong enough to go to the store with him to shop for the week.
I'm doing my best to stay busy and cleaning as much as I can. I'm looking forward to making pot stickers and fried rice for dinner. I haven't had that in a while and the baby and I LOVE it.
Sometimes I feel like I'd do more if I wasn't always dreading running in to Mom when I'm in the kitchen, but I'm working on overcoming that reluctance. It's my house and my heart is much fuller when I'm slicing vegetables and making cookies. I like to be busy. I know that I won't be able to do a lot of these things for a while after Nora is born because I'm going to be breastfeeding, but I'm going to be back at it when she's older.
My only complaint right now is that both sets of bedding that I like for the nursery are currently unavailable. I'm hoping that something will come up before too long. I've got to have it on the registry before the baby shower.
I hope that this peace and contentment can stay with me a few more days, even in the face of Mom's upsetting behavior. I don't want to be sad, or scream, or constantly angry and frustrated. I know that I'm not really that person. While Mom was gone there was such calmness in my life. I want to find a way of recreating that even though Mom brings such chaos.
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I hope the warm weather comes your way, soon.