Bundles

I haven't heard much from my Indiana family since Mazzy died. I was letting myself get carried away, believing that now that I didn't have a child, there wasn't any reason to be close to me. I had lost the magic 'key' to family bonding when my daughter passed. It turns out that the Silent Treatment had been established because they have been keeping a secret. My brother's girlfriend, Meghan, is pregnant, again. She is due in August with their third child.

Apparently there was concern that I wouldn't take the news well. I can't say how I would have dealt with the news a couple of months ago. I just know how the silence and the distance made me feel.

Hopefully I have the opportunity to continue to be close to my brother and his girlfriend. I want to be able to learn more about the two nephews they have already given me. Ideally I would like to start from day one with the newest addition by getting to know him/her through long distance chatter and pictures. I am going to start sending random cards and badly written poetry so that they have some idea of who I am. Distance makes family connections hard. I want to try and ease that.

In the meantime, I am supposed to be getting together with a friend right now. Unfortunately I feel less than motivated and I have cancelled on her several times. Poor timing and such, I guess.