And I am Feelin'
I have been busy doing nothing. Shocking.
I went to see Katy Perry with my Bestie, Val. It was awesome. I love, love, love that I was able to see her. I had such a great time. The music was fun, the costumes were fantastic and I adored being shoulder-to-shoulder with other fans.
My favorite new item(s) are my knee-high black Doc Marten boots. I have been stomping around the house trying to break them in. They make me feel like a pirate, so I have been making up shanties about housework.
My niece, Ella Adine, was born on August 20th. I am delighted that I have another family member to love. I am looking forward to meeting her. At this point I would be happy to see a picture of her. My Indiana family is sometimes very lame when it comes to keeping me updated with family information. I have become accustomed to it, but I don't have to like it, right?
Monday was a lovely day. I went to lunch with a former co-worker and to a movie afterward. We saw "Funny People" with Seth Rogen and Adam Sandler. It was both moving and funny. My taste is a bit on the black comedy side of things, so if you are against that, don't expect to be rolling in the aisles with laughter.
Elizabeth is getting a divorce. She is Adam's youngest step-sister, at 20. We are twelve years apart but I have always been close to her. Both of the girls have been like family to me. Sappy, yes. I love Adam's family, even when there are times I wish their problems didn't bleed in to our life, but you can't have it both ways, right? Elizabeth is spending a lot of time here. I am a safe place for her. I have been since I came in to the family when she was still 12-13 years old. Yep, that is me being sappy, again.
There are some Emo-esque things I am still processing through right now. I am hoping that all of my self-directed nit-picking is just a symptom of my Impending Birthday Disease that I seem to suffer from every year at this time. It is a horrid combination of evaluating what I have achieved in the last year (housewife/dead baby) and what I was supposed to have this time last year (toddler/new car/happiness). It is me turning 32 and recognizing that it doesn't mean anything. I have the same marriage I had last year, except there is a faint scent of desperation in the way that we cling to each other. (I can't/won't lose anything else.)
I am looking at my friends and my place in that circle. I am seeing the way that I am perceived and I am annoyed because the person reflected back me is not the person that lives in my head. Rather than feeling challenged, I just want to throw my hands up and quit.
So, yeah, Emo stuff going on. Boring, so we are moving on....
I went to see Katy Perry with my Bestie, Val. It was awesome. I love, love, love that I was able to see her. I had such a great time. The music was fun, the costumes were fantastic and I adored being shoulder-to-shoulder with other fans.
My favorite new item(s) are my knee-high black Doc Marten boots. I have been stomping around the house trying to break them in. They make me feel like a pirate, so I have been making up shanties about housework.
My niece, Ella Adine, was born on August 20th. I am delighted that I have another family member to love. I am looking forward to meeting her. At this point I would be happy to see a picture of her. My Indiana family is sometimes very lame when it comes to keeping me updated with family information. I have become accustomed to it, but I don't have to like it, right?
Monday was a lovely day. I went to lunch with a former co-worker and to a movie afterward. We saw "Funny People" with Seth Rogen and Adam Sandler. It was both moving and funny. My taste is a bit on the black comedy side of things, so if you are against that, don't expect to be rolling in the aisles with laughter.
Elizabeth is getting a divorce. She is Adam's youngest step-sister, at 20. We are twelve years apart but I have always been close to her. Both of the girls have been like family to me. Sappy, yes. I love Adam's family, even when there are times I wish their problems didn't bleed in to our life, but you can't have it both ways, right? Elizabeth is spending a lot of time here. I am a safe place for her. I have been since I came in to the family when she was still 12-13 years old. Yep, that is me being sappy, again.
There are some Emo-esque things I am still processing through right now. I am hoping that all of my self-directed nit-picking is just a symptom of my Impending Birthday Disease that I seem to suffer from every year at this time. It is a horrid combination of evaluating what I have achieved in the last year (housewife/dead baby) and what I was supposed to have this time last year (toddler/new car/happiness). It is me turning 32 and recognizing that it doesn't mean anything. I have the same marriage I had last year, except there is a faint scent of desperation in the way that we cling to each other. (I can't/won't lose anything else.)
I am looking at my friends and my place in that circle. I am seeing the way that I am perceived and I am annoyed because the person reflected back me is not the person that lives in my head. Rather than feeling challenged, I just want to throw my hands up and quit.
So, yeah, Emo stuff going on. Boring, so we are moving on....
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