More nothing than before

We were recently visited by my sister-in-law and her three boys. We call them the BoyZ because they all have "Z" names. Right now they live a couple hours away and we only see them a couple times a year. Each one of them has a crush on me. (It's okay, we're not blood related and they'll grow out of it.) I've been in their lives since they were little. Z3 has had the joy of Aunt Chessy his whole life. Z1 remembers a time before I was in the family, but only barely.

Anyway, we spent the day together. I got to talk with them and each boy took a turn riding in the car without his brothers. It works out great, even if it is a small hassle. Anything to make Zae's life easier. (My sis-in-law.)

I've always sort of feared taking on more than one kid at a time. In the last few years I've been thrust in to multi-kid scenarios and did all right, but I know that those experiences are temporary and I can't base my ability to handle it forever on a couple of good days with someone's kids.

Lately I've felt pretty okay with things, with my life. I've accepted a lot of things and I'm not afraid to muddle through, even if things aren't perfect. Go figure.

We're still hoping to get pregnant. I've done everything we can do for this month. We just have to sit back and see if it took. We're running out of weeks, but that's a problem will face when its knocking on the door.