Among other things...
I saw Mama Mia! over the weekend. I loved it!!!!! !!!! I liked it that much. I haven't had that much fun at a movie since seeing Hedwig at the gay and lesbian film festival in Philadelphia back in 2001. You know, when I had a life......
I purchased the new Alanis Morisette CD
Flavors of Entanglement this weekend, but I haven't listened to it, yet. I am hoping to enjoy it. I need something to pop in when I am cleaning the kitchen. I know that Stefanie likes her music, so I won't worry so much about disturbing her with my music.
As for the situations with the houseguests, well, I am learning a lot about myself. I think the experience, listening to an addict process her triggers and behaviors, makes me reflect, too. If I were honest, it scares me. I don't know how to do much more than listen. The concept of being so unable (unwilling?) to deal with life that constant escapism is preferable to actually fixing my life is so foreign to me. I am so totally in the moment, in my life, layered feelings and obligations never leaving me that I wouldn't know how to escape properly. I simply can't walk away from what is required of me. My challenge has always been defining what task is given to me and what is a task I have given myself and whether or not it is truly my burden.
Reflection makes me restless. I am uncomfortable with what I am learning about myself and how what I know to be true of my self and how I am living don't really line up in harmony. I accept that I have made these choices and that I am going to remain in this life, so I don't like to rock the mental boat with conflicting realities. Despite knowing that I would not have lived this life naturally, I have chosen it and I will remain responsible for that choice.
That being said.....
I purchased the new Alanis Morisette CD
Flavors of Entanglement this weekend, but I haven't listened to it, yet. I am hoping to enjoy it. I need something to pop in when I am cleaning the kitchen. I know that Stefanie likes her music, so I won't worry so much about disturbing her with my music.
As for the situations with the houseguests, well, I am learning a lot about myself. I think the experience, listening to an addict process her triggers and behaviors, makes me reflect, too. If I were honest, it scares me. I don't know how to do much more than listen. The concept of being so unable (unwilling?) to deal with life that constant escapism is preferable to actually fixing my life is so foreign to me. I am so totally in the moment, in my life, layered feelings and obligations never leaving me that I wouldn't know how to escape properly. I simply can't walk away from what is required of me. My challenge has always been defining what task is given to me and what is a task I have given myself and whether or not it is truly my burden.
Reflection makes me restless. I am uncomfortable with what I am learning about myself and how what I know to be true of my self and how I am living don't really line up in harmony. I accept that I have made these choices and that I am going to remain in this life, so I don't like to rock the mental boat with conflicting realities. Despite knowing that I would not have lived this life naturally, I have chosen it and I will remain responsible for that choice.
That being said.....
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