Sibling Cop-out

Mom being in the hospital has made me strangely needy, and not just wanting to snuggle with my husband, or steal a cig on the way home from visiting my mom, but I need my brother to be a completely different person. I guess I don't really NEED him to be a better person, I just want him to be so that I wouldn't feel like the only person on the planet that cares about my Mom's welfare. Our Mom. She is our mother, no matter how many miles are between us and I would love it if he would act like it, once in a while.

Which, in reality, is not true. He does act like she is our mother when he is in a good place and he wants to brag about all the good stuff going in with him or the Boys. I get that. He is proud when his life is going well and he doesn't want to appear weak, or needy, when things aren't going well. Meanwhile, my mom is scared and sad and she would love it if Jamen would call her, just to check in.

I have done my best to deflect and give her everything I've got, but that just isn't enough. She deserves attention from her son, as well. I just hate that it is basically a pipe dream.